There was a time, when I used to be very anti-Valentine's Day. I was
angry and hurt, because I thought I deserved love from someone special, and I
didn’t have that in my life. I would
wear all black, and proudly claim that I don't celebrate Single's Awareness
Day. Oh, if I could only go back to that time! I would tell myself that no one deserves
anything unless they work for it. And, I
needed to work to be good at relationships, no different than I had to work to excel
in my school studies, and in my dance classes.
I’m ashamed to say that I spent far too many years thinking that I
deserved something I didn't, and I maintained an attitude because I didn’t have it.
For me, 2016 was all about self-love. I spent the year doing things I always wanted to do, even if I had to do it by myself, and I’m glad I got to experience that. I was expecting the man in my life to provide this sense of security (if that’s the right word), and a constant reassurance that I was worth taking the time to do these activities, or travel to certain places. Truth be told, I can’t rely on someone else to make me happy. I think that’s an unrealistic expectation. So, I spent last year treating myself the way I was hoping that a man would. And, because of that, I spent Valentine's Day indulging in some decadent red-velvet pancakes, while watching T.V. in my sweatpants.
After my year of self-indulgences, I realized that I didn’t really need a good portion of what I thought I needed. So, this year, I’ve been focusing on others, and how I can treat others better. Essentially, be a better relationship partner, friend, sister, daughter, and co-worker. Don’t get me wrong. I still indulge myself once in a while, but at least I don’t feel like I’m constantly sacrificing my needs, for something or someone else.
SO…. Because of my newfound outlook on life, I decided to do something for others this Valentine’s Day. Since I’ve been wanting to try this recipe for red-velvet pound cake for a while now, I figured it would be thoughtful to bring my co-workers a sweet treat!
I have to admit that I was really nervous about it. What if people thought that I was weird? What if no one wanted to eat my dessert? What if I say the wrong thing when they come over to get a piece of cake? So many doubts and worries! But, despite my negative self-talk I persevered. I brought in the cake, sent out the email for people to come and help themselves, and hopefully I came across polite, and made people feel appreciated. I really couldn’t have asked for a better day.
For me, 2016 was all about self-love. I spent the year doing things I always wanted to do, even if I had to do it by myself, and I’m glad I got to experience that. I was expecting the man in my life to provide this sense of security (if that’s the right word), and a constant reassurance that I was worth taking the time to do these activities, or travel to certain places. Truth be told, I can’t rely on someone else to make me happy. I think that’s an unrealistic expectation. So, I spent last year treating myself the way I was hoping that a man would. And, because of that, I spent Valentine's Day indulging in some decadent red-velvet pancakes, while watching T.V. in my sweatpants.
After my year of self-indulgences, I realized that I didn’t really need a good portion of what I thought I needed. So, this year, I’ve been focusing on others, and how I can treat others better. Essentially, be a better relationship partner, friend, sister, daughter, and co-worker. Don’t get me wrong. I still indulge myself once in a while, but at least I don’t feel like I’m constantly sacrificing my needs, for something or someone else.
SO…. Because of my newfound outlook on life, I decided to do something for others this Valentine’s Day. Since I’ve been wanting to try this recipe for red-velvet pound cake for a while now, I figured it would be thoughtful to bring my co-workers a sweet treat!
I have to admit that I was really nervous about it. What if people thought that I was weird? What if no one wanted to eat my dessert? What if I say the wrong thing when they come over to get a piece of cake? So many doubts and worries! But, despite my negative self-talk I persevered. I brought in the cake, sent out the email for people to come and help themselves, and hopefully I came across polite, and made people feel appreciated. I really couldn’t have asked for a better day.
Comments
Post a Comment