Diary of a Spinster and Lunatic

I often listen to YouTube videos while I’m working, and try to absorb as much knowledge and gain as much understanding as I possibly can.   In my experience, this is just the only way to happiness.   I used to be so confused and felt so stupid, because I couldn’t understand things that other people seemed to fully grasp.   I came across this video this week, and it was such a great message that I had to share it. In my life, there have been several areas that have not come easily for me.   One of those being my relationships.   I don’t easily connect with people.   And, I recognize that I had/still have some bad habits that I have had to work through, in order to stop pushing people away, and actually draw them to me.   Another lesson that I’ve learned, is that God needs to be included in every aspect of our lives.   I know that I used to separate God and a lot of areas of my life, including my health journey, personal relationships, and my job.   It just never dawned on me to includ

A fter purchasing my very first home (!) last week, I have been having some hard lessons in patience.   There are some things that need to be done before I move in, and I’m super anxious for them to happen already.   It’s driving me crazy, that there is literally nothing for me to do but wait.   And, it’s not helping that my current living situation is not quite up to my standards.     For the first time, in a very long time, I’m relying on other people to get things done for me.   And, the fact that I can’t control what my contractors’ schedules are like, or other things that have come up, is driving me crazy!   However, despite my frustration, I’ve had a personal victory.   Instead of getting angry, frustrated and moody, like I have in the past.   I’m choosing to give my struggles to God.   I’m choosing to focus on the things I can do right now, instead of focusing on the things I can’t.     There’s no denying the struggle is real.   But, I’m so much less stressed and mood

I'm not the best at meditation, so when I heard about guided meditations, I knew it was something I wanted to try.  I could never just clear my mind, or have a thought cross my mind, and then let it go.  I dwell on things.  And, am entirely too much in my head.  Which is probably evidence that I really need to be meditating! I tried a few apps, and finally landed on the Insight Timer.  I really like that I can choose a meditation based on the length of time I want to meditate.  And, it has a never ending variety of guided, and musical meditations.  You can also choose to meditate using different sounds like interval bells, an ambient sound, or even simply set a timer and end your quiet meditation with a bell.  There are so many meditations to choose from, and new ones constantly being added, that it's impossible to run out of options.  Not to mention, it's free!  I decided to try to incorporate meditation into my bedtime routine for several weeks.  To be honest, I didn

So little time, so little time - I'm so frustrated So little joy, so little joy - It's complicated So little time, so little time, time to work it on out Yeah yeah [Verse 2] So little joy, so little joy - It's complicated I feel I'm stumbling in the dark - Somnambulated I feel my heart seekin' the sparks, and prayin' for love Love love Prayin' for love [Verse 3] So little joy, so little joy - It's complicated So little time, so little time - when your heart's been faded So little hope, so little hope - and I'm prayin' again for love Love love Is more than enough [Chorus] Simply being loved loved loved Simply being loved loved loved Simply being loved loved loved Is more than enough, yeah yeah Simply being loved loved loved Simply being loved loved loved Simply being loved loved loved Is more than enough, yeah yeah Simply being loved, yeah yeah Is more than enough, yeah yeah Simply being loved, yeah (is more than enough) [Verse 4] S

Sometimes it’s really difficult to drown out all of the negativity in this world.   Maybe it’s a roommate who hates their job, and it seems like they never have anything positive to say.   Maybe it’s the old man loudly grumbling on the train about who knows what.   Or, it can be that person in your life who expresses how you don’t need to lose weight or eat healthier, when they should be supportive of your decision to make positive lifestyle changes.     Whatever it is, know that these negative distractions will not go away.   Create a goal, have a plan, and stick to it.   I promise it will be a struggle.   Your will-power will be tested.   (I have watched my friend cry at dinner because she ordered a salad, and not what she really wanted.)   Change is not easy, especially with the constant exposure to negativity.     Keep going my friend.   You got this!

  I am a huge fan of face masks.   Not only does it give me skin the extra oomph it needs to continue to look young, and non-spinster like.   But, it’s also one of my favorite ways to feel pampered without breaking the bank, or taking up a lot of my time.   As I’ve gotten older, I’ve started noticing the tiny baby-fuzz hairs on my face.   I don’t know whether this is because I’ve just become more aware, or whether they are actually getting worse.   Regardless, it led me to trying this do-it-yourself peel mask, which uses only two ingredients.   I must emphasize that this mask helps, but does not in any way remove all peach fuzz hairs in one use.   Though, it probably would come pretty close, if you use this mask frequently.   All you need is one packet of unflavored gelatin and some milk (or water, which I’ve used in a pinch).   Mix the gelatin and milk in a small bowl.   Microwave for about 15-20 seconds, and apply to a clean face using a brush.     Two things to be aware

We’ve all heard it before, “ Life isn’t always comfortable.”   Even if the change is a positive one, like eating healthier… it’s still not comfortable.     I’m in the process of buying my first home, and while I’m so happy and excited, I’m also really nervous and scared.   I would like to think I’m ready for the additional challenges and responsibilities of owning my own home.   But, what if I’m not?   Big life changes can be really nerve-racking!   But, I’m finding familiarity with being uncomfortable.   And, I actually take that to be a good thing.     If we get too comfortable, there is no growth, and if there is no growth, then we are just slowly dying. So, this week, embrace being a little uncomfortable.   It’s how you know you’re changing!