After I treated myself so poorly last week, I was really
hoping to kick this week’s ass. Alas, it
kicked mine. I really didn’t pick up the
exercise the way I hoped and I continued to eat out pretty regularly, which I
prefer not to do. All for the sake of
getting away from my desk and out of the office, if only for the 15 minutes it
takes to go and pick up some food and come back and get back to the daily
grind.
I’m not sure if I lack discipline or just the desire to be
better. I know that when I get in my
“funks” as I call them, I just go through the motions of the day, not really
caring about anything. I’ll just do the
bare minimum and make excuses as to why I can’t possibly be expected to do
something.
But, I do want to be better.
I know I need to push myself. I
certainly don’t want to be an average woman.
I want to be something exceptional and special. And, those people don’t quit. They don’t sit back and whine because
something isn’t going there way.
Something that I came to terms with earlier this year is that I have
control over everything that happens to me – good or bad. It was such a profound feeling when I
realized this because it took away all of the excuses. It’s just me on this journey, and if I want
something then I need to earn it.
I have so many goals and things that I’m working towards
that it can feel extremely overwhelming.
I mean, how can I possibly be expected to remember to work on improving
so many things at once? I’ve decided to
create a list of weekly goals. I’ll check
in each day to see how I’m doing and keep myself on track. This week, I’m starting out with 7. I’m assuming that some will roll over week to
week, but I plan to leave them on this list until it becomes more than a
passing phase. I want these good habits
to become a part of who I am naturally.
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