Weekly Goals

After I treated myself so poorly last week, I was really hoping to kick this week’s ass.  Alas, it kicked mine.  I really didn’t pick up the exercise the way I hoped and I continued to eat out pretty regularly, which I prefer not to do.  All for the sake of getting away from my desk and out of the office, if only for the 15 minutes it takes to go and pick up some food and come back and get back to the daily grind.

I’m not sure if I lack discipline or just the desire to be better.  I know that when I get in my “funks” as I call them, I just go through the motions of the day, not really caring about anything.  I’ll just do the bare minimum and make excuses as to why I can’t possibly be expected to do something. 

But, I do want to be better.  I know I need to push myself.  I certainly don’t want to be an average woman.  I want to be something exceptional and special.  And, those people don’t quit.  They don’t sit back and whine because something isn’t going there way.  Something that I came to terms with earlier this year is that I have control over everything that happens to me – good or bad.  It was such a profound feeling when I realized this because it took away all of the excuses.  It’s just me on this journey, and if I want something then I need to earn it. 

I have so many goals and things that I’m working towards that it can feel extremely overwhelming.  I mean, how can I possibly be expected to remember to work on improving so many things at once?  I’ve decided to create a list of weekly goals.  I’ll check in each day to see how I’m doing and keep myself on track.  This week, I’m starting out with 7.  I’m assuming that some will roll over week to week, but I plan to leave them on this list until it becomes more than a passing phase.  I want these good habits to become a part of who I am naturally.